letting go is hard to do..

it's been lovely, winter break of '09. but tomorrow, i have to get back on the grind. the gay grind. i really don't wanna go back to school. '09 was really good to me so far. coming home at 3 or 4 in the morning. city stops and club hoppin. hangin with the most random people. rekindling old friendships. driving an hour away to "party" or just chill. this is what i need. i wish my whole life was winter break. lol i know, i be buggin yo. i can't help it. i had the time of my life this past month. now i gotta get back to reality. wake up at 7am instead of 2pm. class then straight to work. 8am - 6pm. 5 days a fckn week. so i'm never really free until after 6pm. which technically is my gym or study time. so therefore, i never have free time. i know, this is rediculous. i really will have no time for nobody and it sucks. i don't know what i'm going to do. i guess occasionally i can do a dinner date.. but i DOUBT that. hopefully this first week is stress free. i need to ease my way in this new schedule slowly. i didn't even buy books for classes. nor do i have notebooks. wow, i am a bum. i should even start packin right? lol i have to get up at 7am tomorrow. i'm still at home in bridgewater. i'm driving straight to class in the morning. i thought maybe the longer i stay home, the further away the thought of school is. which is kinda true. but now my ass gotta wake up half an hour earlier. gahh! someone save me.