It's time for a change..

and for those who know me, you all know i have this thing with my hair where i constantly need to change it. whether it's the style or the color, within 2 - 4 months, it's something new. i change my hair like i change my clothes. my mom says i'm gonna end up bald in a couple of years. i guess i feel that with my hair, i feel that i can control it. life on the other hand, is something that just happens and you can't steer the wheel in just any direction. i mean, i guess your decisions in life do have some type of control to where your life is headed, but other than that, you are nothing but a little kid in a candy store. you just have no idea what to do with yourself cuz you're given so many options, but don't know which to choose.. i have no idea where i'm headed with this entry, but it's 3 in the morning and i feel like writing.

so far in the new year, i've been pretty damn good. especially with keepin my resolutions. i've been exercising and running every (week)day. i eat less. i haven't been in any type of relation. and i've been havin the time of my life going out and having fun with the ones i love. my whole smokin issue is gettin better though. i'm tryin to cut down now, although i don't do much. it's more like a social and stress thing. still, i know, it's not a good reason. but it'll eventually die out. i go through these weird smoking phases. ever since i was in highschool. but whatevahh.

there's a little less than 2 weeks until i'm back at school.. stressin out about fuckin nursing. hate that shit, yo. but i gotta do what i gotta do. this spring semester, i go to school and work every single fucking day. i will not have a life. so i def need to get ready for that. i might cry the first few days but i'll live. you all know how it is.