my life is wreckless..

i don't know how to bring it up.. i don't want to do nursing. i know when i dropped it this semester, i have one more chance to take it. but i truly believe that my heart isn't in it anymore. it's not what i picture myself as. at the time when i dropped it in march, my dad had asked me if i still wanted to do it. i said yes, partly because i did and partly because i didn't want to disappoint him. then there was another part of me that was just pushing myself to keep going because i had already made it halfway. i don't know which direction to take.

i was talking to a friend last week and we both dropped fundamentals this semester together. we both aren't driven to go all the way through with it. we both had other options in mind. we talked about cosmetology, fashion.. etc. it's something i'm more interested in. i've always been interested in hair. i want to know more about how to do it. i want to one day just open up my own salon. that's my dream..

i just don't know how my parents are gonna take it. i don't know how to tell them. i don't know when to tell them. i know i should tell them soon. why do i feel like this is the hardest decision i've ever made?!